Monday, July 27, 2009

Keeping fit at Disney

I am currently in Orlando, doing the tourist thing with the 8 German exchange students. I've been packing my lunch and grazing through the day. I was able to resist all the crappy for me but looked really good food until today. I did go to the Bistro in France at Epcot. It was wonderful and tasted good but my stomach feels icky now. My husband I split everything and I had scallops, but I'm sure that sauce it was cooked in was full of calories. I did eat cooked fennel, which I have never had before, not too bad! The rest of my trip will easy to eat my lunch that I bring.

I packed my back pack with lots of water and stuff so it's heavy. My husband offered to carry it, but I told him it was part of my workout for the day. I wake up and go to the "fitness center" which is a smelly room with 1 treadmill, 1 bike and 1 stair stepper. I was able to run 4 miles yesterday and 2 miles today. I'll be up early to run. I'm starting to like the running thing. I want to run a 5 K.

The German kids are great and having fun. I hosted my first exchange student in 2003, his name is Ben. He joined my blog recently, which was very nice of him to do. Ben is more to me than an exchange student, he's my son. He's been home here several times and I love each time he visits. It's like he never left. I'm very proud of him as he is in college and works hard. At the same time, he knows how to live and experiences the world. He's able to find a balance. When I went to Germany to visit Drew (my son) when he was living in Germany, I was able to meet Ben's parents. Ben's Dad said something to me that makes the whole exchange experience worth it to me. He said to me "It is nice to finally meet my son's other mother". I can tell you I about cried when he said that. I had always felt like I was Ben's mum, but to hear that from his own parents solidified the reason why I do this. So, while you all know Drew and maybe my younger son Chayse, I also have a German son, a German daughter and a Chinese son. I love them all like they were my own.

Ok, I'm off to bed...tomorrow is another theme park to navigate.
I miss everyone at the gym and of course OTTO!!!!!!
Oh....I weighed in on Sunday....I'm down to 169.5--tha'ts 20.5 lbs!

Monday, July 20, 2009

1 lb down

Sorry I haven't blogged...I've been burning the candle on both ends.

Still only lost 1 lb last week...that's all I'm going to say to stop focusing on the negative.

My clothes feel great, I have been getting a lot of compliments. I have more energy. I bought new workout clothes!

Today, I ran 2.92 miles in 36 minutes with my dog, Bella. She was happy for the exercise and I was happy for the company. I don't think I have EVER run 2.92 miles because I 'wanted to'.

OTTO increased my work outs a bit and my reward at the end is to punch on the mits with him.
Boy do I love that part. I've been at the gym a little bit later this week. I've missed seeing everyone that I usually see.

My exchange students are doing well...just keeping me busy with work and running around.
I leave tomorrow to take them on a tourist vacation to Disney. I'm on my own for my work outs. I know I will work it.

My office had a shake up and I was part of it. Since I was the Senior District Commander, they decided to move me to help round my career. I'll be over Law Enforcement Support Services...it's a cool gig...but I'll miss patrol!

I'm off to bed!
Catch you next week!

Whole lot of craziness

My life is full...I know it...the world knows it........but I insist on adding more to it.

My husband and I are runing this exchange student camp. He's been doing most of the work, but I've been doing the behind the scenes stuff.

I only lost 1 lbs the previous week and dreading getting on the scale in the morning. I know I know..muscle weighs more than fat....still doesn't translate well to my brain when the scale is not showing how hard I have worked....so...in an effort to remain positive.......

NONE OF MY CLOTHES FIT. This is good, but a bit annoying when I put on a pair of shorts and they fall to the floor. OTTO had to deal with my pulling my pants up during a workout and showed me how to "roll them down"....that was special.

I went to the store to buy some shorts because I knew I was going to Orlando and Tampa this weekend and had nothing to wear. Prior to June 1st, I normally would wear anything from an 18 to a 20. My first instinct was to pick up a size 16 and a 14 for fun. I tried the 16 on, and they fell off. Hmmmm...so on went the 14. It felt big and there was a big gap in the waist line......NO FREAKING WAY....could it be that I was in a 12. I have to say my heart skipped a beat. I quickly got dressed and went out and grabbed the 12. Tried then on and low and behold they fit me. That felt goooooodd!!! In Orlando, I met with my best friend Sallay. She's one of the girls in the Army picture I posted. We did a little shopping and long story short...more size 12 shorts and...wait for it....size freaking 1o shirt. I don't think I've seen a size 12 since I was 14 years old...a size 10? I don't remember every wearing a size 10. I had to laugh at myself because when I was trying clothes on...I picked sizes that I used to wear.

I got to work today and my boss told me I needed to go get new uniforms. He said what I had on was too baggy and looked bad. The pants were a size 22. I fit into a 16 in my work pants. ( Mind you these are polyester, very unflattering pants) I went down a few shirt sizes too.

So that's the positive part of how I'm feeling.
Today...I got to box. OMG was that fun. I loved it. There is something so primal and good about hitting things.

OHHH almost forgot...I can run 2 miles STRAIGHT now. No stopping! I did it in 23 minutes today. Not so bad for someone that felt she couldn't run to the mail box.

I miss everyone and feel like I haven't seen you all in ages. Missy I hope you are feeling better soon. I'm off to bed. I have to get up early and make sure I get to the gym.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Thought I'd share some "before" pictures
















Back to Basics

Was focused over the last few days, but I think my focus was blurry.

Last week went by fast, I really didn't keep track of my food like I have been doing and I think that will come back to get me this week. I don't feel like I ate any more than usual, but something wasn't right. I haven't been able to official weigh in because I've had issues at work that I've had to deal with and couldn't get to the gym for the last two mornings.

Our exchange students flew in on Saturday. I was good with my eating as far as not eating junk, but I don't think I ate enough. I should have packed my lunch before we went to the airport but I didn't get a chance to. All went well at the airport other than waiting in line for over an hour to rent the van we needed for the kids.

Sunday, we had a BBQ. OTTO was able to come. He told me I could eat what I wanted because he'd make me puke it out on Monday. I laughed, nervously. I thought I did pretty good, but I did cheat. It's the first time since June 1st that I've had a brownie or chips with dip. In the end, it really wasn't worth it. My stomach was screwed up and I just felt icky. I need to get back to the basics with my eating and I'm working on that today.

Yesterday's workout was a shoulder work out
Behind the back presses with the bar 4 sets of 10
up right rows-- 30 lbs, 4 sets of 10
Giant set 3 sets of 10 with 5 lbs weight
Active rest in between

Otto said he wanted to take it a bit easy on me Monday and Tuesday but on Wednesday, he is going to kill me. hmmmmmm........I don't even want to think about it.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Cardio Day

I did 3 cardio's today...morning, afternoon and evening. I have been doing the elliptical but this evening I went back to running. I ran my mile and fast walked the rest.

A few people stopped me to tell me how good I was doing and they could see a big difference. Those kind of unsolicited comments are the best. I feel like I'm not just in this with the other 5 Amazing people, but I have a whole gym family that is behind us. For the most part, my life consist of work and my children. I have a few select friends, but in my job, it's hard to branch out to meet new people. I am enjoying seeing and meeting new people. Letting my guard down and accepting the support from everyone around me to help me accomplish my goals.

I mentioned earlier that the Army cadence songs have helped pushed me in my running. I imagine that I'm running with a platoon. When you are doing this for real, dropping out is letting your platoon, your buddies, down. You can't do that. At the same time, if you are struggling, it's your platoon that supports you through the run. On most occasions, the slowest person is put on the left front spot, they set the pace. You sing the cadence to keep focused on running and the people next to you encourage you to keep going and to push yourself. If you drop out, the platoon usually circles around and picks you back up. It's more than running, it's bonding. It's pushing yourself so your buddies don't have to run more. Dynabody is my platoon. I'm pushing myself so that other can see that they can do it too. Those more fit than me are picking me up and pushing me on to help me achieve my goals. Everyone that works the front desk and says hello...they always have something nice to say...they start my workout with a positive vibe. Of course I can't forget Drill Sergeant OTTO. The person who looks through my whining and my eye rolling and continues to show me that I can push myself further than I ever thought.

Thanks just doesn't even cover it!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Back to being focused

After my melt down, I realized I needed to re-focus. I'm always in control, even when I feel like I'm not. I was in control of the way I responded to OTTO and didn't say the things that I was wanting to say.....that took a lot of effort. :) So, it was only the illusion of not being in control that freaked me out.

I find with every work out, I am becoming more confident. People have noticed this change at work, although some are not too happy about it. As Colin Powell says "Being responsible sometimes means pissing people off"

My husband and I are running an exchange student camp for 3 weeks this summer. We have 8 German students flying in on Saturday. I won't be able to make the bike ride :( The next 3 weeks are going to be tough fitting in my workouts but I'm gonna do it!

My work out today:
Lat pull downs to back
3 sets of 15 with 70 lbs
1 set of 10 with 80 lbs
Drop set starting with 1 set of 8 with 90 lbs
I think I conked my head with the bar a few times with this one

Seated Row Machine
4 sets of 15 with 60 lbs

Lower back/Ab Circuit

Long day in general for me!

Monday, July 6, 2009

Mental Melt Down

So my day started out pretty good. 16 lbs down. Not bad.

My workout with Otto started out bad.

We were doing Arnold Presses and I was struggling. I couldn't figure out why and felt really defeated by the time I got to the last set. I think that set the mood for the rest of my night. Come to find out, last time I did Arnold Presses, I did it with 8lb weights and tonight, I was using the 15 lbs weights. Duh, right? Still, my mood was off.

I could feel myself getting whinier by the minute which didn't phase OTTO...which is a good thing.

So, Arnold Presses--4 sets of 12 with 15 lbs
Front detloid cable raises 2 sets of 12 with 20 lbs and 1 set of 15 with 20
Lateral raises 30 lbs for 10, 20 for 10, 15 for 12, 15 for 12
Rear deltoid extensions 30 lbs for 10, 15 lbs for 12, 15lbs for 12
active rest in between sets

After this it was a circuit of exercises for 5 minutes. By this time, I was done. Mentally done and physically done. I didn't want to do anymore. Half way into this 5 minutes of hell, I just stopped and said "I'm done". Otto just blankly looked at me and said "what"...I said "I'm done, I don't want to do this anymore" At that moment he stepped in to say something to me about not quitting, I'm not really sure what, however the perceived aggressiveness of him stepping into "my space" set me over the edge. At that particular moment OTTO became "A man" trying to tell me what to do. I won't go into specifics in a public blog about the things that have happened to me in the past, but I can tell you that I have very good reason to feel the way that I do. I pride myself on being in control and vowed to never let a man ( or woman for that matter) dominate me ever again. Inside, I wanted to yell at OTTO, scream at him...snap his head off. I had to bite the inside of my cheek and I started doing the jumping jacks and finished the exercises but I didn't respond to really anything other than that. I laid there on the mat and he gave me my time to relax. I quickly was back into reality, realizing what had just occurred. I felt bad, really awful that I was about ready to snap on OTTO. I was just out of my comfort zone and in a place that I haven't been and vowed I would never be, which was not in control. I briefly told OTTO that I was in a place that I didn't like. He said he knew, that he saw something change in me. He said pushing me was going to bring up old emotions/issues and we'd work through them.

I left the gym, cried all the way home. My poor husband had no idea what was wrong with me. He grabbed my hands to pull me in to hug him. I looked up at him and said "Let go of my hands, don't restrict my movement right now. It's not you, it's me" He gave me my space and I explained everything to him later on.

I emailed OTTO and told him how I was feeling, why I felt this way. His answer was pretty simple, that I was always in control of how I react to situations. He's right. I also apologized for the things I was "thinking" I wanted to do to him and that I appreciated all the time and effort he was putting into me to see me succeed. I also asked for him not to ease up on me (which I'm sure he wouldn't anyway) as I need that pushing as I need to confront the past. When it all boils down to it, the past is the reason why I was comfortable with gaining weight to begin with. As confident as I can appear in my uniform, there is always a crack there. Now I have seen that, I'm gonna work hard on fixing it.

Thanks OTTO for not taking it personally. :)

Show down with my Arch-Nemesis

I got to see my Arch-Nemesis today. We had a stare down for several minutes. I approached, feeling lost without my sidearm, but knowing that I had to confront this beast, even barehanded. I was confident in my abilities to take him down, I've been trained. However, I still had a bit of hesitation, and in my line of work, that will get you killed.

I finally did it and he was as cold and careless as I expected, however, he could not bulk at the CHANGE that happened this week. 4 lbs down....16 total so far.

I laughed at him when I walked away.......

Sunday, July 5, 2009

07/03-07/05

OTTO is on a much deserved break from me. I know seeing me everyday has it’s perks, but I’m sure it gets to a person after awhile….ask my husband! :)

On Monday, I wanted to see if I could run. I hate running, never been very good at it. I did download some Army Cadence songs to see if they would help. So..on Monday, I ran a mile straight. This was a great accomplishment for me! The next day, I went 1.5 and the day after 1.7. Since last Monday, I have run 17.26 miles!!!! ( I did walk some of it) So this has been my new cardio that I’ve been enjoying. I’m staying focused!

Tried some clothes on over the weekend….they don’t fit! Bought two new dress, both size 14..haven’t seen that size in about 17 years. I told Drew that and he said “HMMMM, that directly correlates with my birth, right?” YEPPERS!!!

So, I did Cardio all weekend and the awesome pool work with Anna-Marie. I was off on Friday so I hit the water aerobics class. Zach and I got to be super heroes with resistance fins on our ankles while we swam. On Saturday Zach, Kristen, Missy, Todd and his wife El had a good workout in the pool. It was great seeing everyone! Everyone is working hard and noticing CHANGE! KEEP IT UP!!!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Banging my head!

Long day at work, went by too slow for a 3 day weekend. UGH.
Got to the gym and started my warm up.
I’m not really sure what happened but we didn’t write down what I did tonight.
It was some new stuff so I’m not sure of the technical terms.

For some reason, today, I was pretty whiny about everything. OTTO even asked me why I was whining so much. Had a bit of a stressful day at work and at work, I can’t whine. I explained that at times, I just whine. It doesn’t mean that our work out has to be changed in anyway but it feels better if I whine about it. He was good with it and didn’t let me slide. At one point he was torturing me with this stick I had to hold out in front of me and wind a weight up on. I had to control it on the way up and one the way down. On the last one, my forearms were screaming and my writs were done. I thought OTTO was watching the weight so I cheated a bit and let it down with my fingers…DRAT I was caught. I had to do it over again….he wound it back up but I was trying to do it and laughing at the same time and ½ way down, he wound it back up and made me do over for laughing too much. The punishment was well deserved….kinda like banging my head on that tree. Some of them, you just have to take.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Eating more=more energy!

Hammer Strength Chest Press
2 sets of 12 at 45 lbs
1 set of 10 at 50 lbs
1 set of 5 at 55 lbs

Incline flies (to get my boobs back)
2 sets of 15 at 15 lbs
1 set of 12 at 20 lbs
1 set of 10 at 20 lbs
I thought I was going to drop these on my head but OTTO was spotting me thankfully

Peck Deck
50 lbs
30 lbs
30 lbs
15 lbs
Drop set with pushup in between. YIKES

I’ve increased my eating this week.
730- Whole Wheat toast/egg- 140 cal
OJ/vitamins-160 cal
1030- Pudding 100 cal
1330-Spaghetti 220
1530-cheese stick- 60 cal
1630 Low Cal wrap-200
Cantelope-45 cal
2000 Protein Shake- 204

I’m feeling much better by eating more and having more energy for my workouts with OTTO. We’ve stepped my workouts up a bit and of he has changed a few things around. I am feeling really good and noticed an improvement in my moods as well. That’s a good thing all around for everybody!