I'm still here

I found out the other day that some of the "New Change Program" actually take the time to review my blogs. I thought that was really cool!
That being said..how has my life been after the program...WONDERFUL!!! I'm still still doing good, but I did gain some weight back. I still fit in my clothes, but I can feel some of it creeping back up on me.
Why??? Because I stopped writing my food down and had that mindset "I can have this....." So, I am back at it.
I have continued to exercise since the competition, and I am excited about physical exercises I CAN do. I can RUN..I can SPIN...I can do ANYTHING I put my mind to!
Here is what I ate today
Breakfast
Tropi 50 Orange Juice 50 cal
Greek Yogurt 140 cal
Salad with:
Spinach 20 cal
Cheese 50
Chicken Breast 62
Black Beans 40
Avocado (this was a big treat because they are a bit high in Calories) 230
Piece of bread 100
Ocean Spray Cranberry Energy Juice 60
Naval Orange 64
So that's 814 calories so far...still have a snack and dinner to go but I'll be within my 1400 cal range for sure!
I'm going to try to get to the gym tonight too!

It's over......but it has only begun

Tomorrow, Otto, Amy and I are working out. I've taken it easy that last few days, and I have to tell you, I FEEL LIKE CRAP! I am not going back to my old lifestyle, that is for sure!

Wednesday night was great.....CONGRATULATIONS TO ZAC! I am soooo proud of him and Missy and Kristen. WE DID IT! We proved what hard work and mental toughness can do. Todd we missed you, I wish you would have still come!

I was appreciative of all the wonderful comments. I dressed up for the occasion. I don't think anyone has seen me in anything but sweaty gym clothes at the end of the day. There were a lot of surprised faces and a lot of really great comments on how I look now. It made me feel really good!

I can't thank my BFF OTTO enough for the CHANGE that has happened in my life because of him. He was there to lift me spirits up when I wanted to quit. Yes, there were times that I had enough. Working two jobs, family life, stress it all worked on me. The one constant I had in my life this last 12 weeks was OTTO encouraging me "Come on Mamma...show me..you can do it..show um what you are made of". I remember when he first had me looking in the mirror at myself. I didn't like it. I didn't want to look. I then started to see muscle and it was a shock to see my body transforming. He boosted my confidence, showed me what I could do and taught me to try what I thought might be too hard. He pushed me just enough when I needed it. He knew when I needed to vent and would take the time to sit and listen and talk. He carried me when I was feeling at my worst and I will never be able to repay the dedication he gave me. I can only continue to work hard and show him that I am going to keep this up.

Work has been fantastic and I have people asking me to work out with them and to show them what they can do. I'm excited about this.

I gotta get to bed.

xo to all my peeps out there.

This week is our last....it's hard to believe that its been almost 12 weeks.

I remember when I couldn't run a mile.....on Saturday....I ran 5.37 miles in an hour!
I remember when I didn't run a mile in a week....last week...I logged in over 45 miles.
I remember when I would eat a bag of Doritos for a snack....I haven't had one Dorito since 4th of July and I find I don't miss them.
I remember when I wore a size 20....on Saturday....I fit into a pair of size 10 jeans.
I remember when most of my clothes felt too small.....now.....all my clothes are too big.
I remember when I didn't think twice about what I was eating.....now I evaluate what I eat and enjoy eating good things.
I remember when I didn't eat vegetables.....now I eat a whole bunch more.
I remember that I used to eat out a lot......now...I can't remember when the last time was that I ate out
I remember when I slept until 6:30 am...now I run 4 miles by 6:30 am
I remember when I felt alone when it came to losing weight...now...I have an extended family at Dynabody that has helped me realize that I could do it!
I remember when I thought a personal trainer couldn't help me....now...I have a new best friend who genuinely cares about my overall health and well being.
I remember when I thought I'd wake up one day and be thinner and healthier......because of the CHANGE program, I am!

Missy and I went over to Whispering Pines on Sunday and she ROCKED the house. We jogged and walked the trail and it was awesome. We will be doing this again in the future! She encouraged me to try the spin class.....I loved it! That is another exercise I will add to my list of things I like to do now!
See everyone soon!
Cinda

I'm not feeling well...my allergies are in high gear or something.
I'm stressing over a new class tomorrow. I've been teaching college since I graduated with my Master's in 2006, however, this will be my first class for St Leo University.
That's where I graduated from and I haven't been on campus since then. I'm excited because I now feel like a "real teacher", but annoyed because I don't feel so good. :(

My body is sore from doing legs on Thursday. I was feeling yucky all day and didn't get a chance to exercise. I do feel guilty about this, but I just couldn't find the time between my demands for work and demands for this new class.

I plan on bringing my gym clothes and running at the University tomorrow. They have wonderful orange groves and a beautiful lake. The change of scenery will be nice.

I am enjoying my new position at work. Did I mention that I'm also in charge of the gym? It got a thorough clean up today as I was getting grossed out at the lack of people cleaning up their sweat. When the CHANGE deadline is over...I'm going to start working on a plan to get our officers in shape.

I saw on old friend today. I haven't seen her in months because she moved away. She was amazed at how I look now, she remembered me at my heaviest..212 lbs. She wanted to know where the rest of me went...I told her I didn't care......although I still would like some of my boobs back. They have not been returned to the lost and found yet.

I was talking to Missy and her son the other day. When the walked away, her son came back up to me and told me that he didn't even recognize me and that he had to ask Missy who I was when they walked away. I cannot tell you how much he made my night. I still see myself as 190 lbs most of the time. If I'm looking in the mirror, I can see the CHANGE...it's just hard to wrap my head around it.

Part of getting rid of stress is getting sleep. I haven't had much of that lately. I've been getting up at 0430 to get ready for my run, then after the gym at night, sometimes I don't get to bed until way after midnight or so. That's one of the reasons I haven't blogged, just haven't had the time. So with that, I am going to go hit the hay.

OH..haven't tried it yet, but my friend at work showed me this powder peanut butter. You mix it with water to the consistency you want.......59 calories for 2 tbs...usually it's anywhere from 169-260! I will have to try some of this!

AND......my sons' other mother (Step-Mom of the Year April) has been coming to the gym. She told me she hated me because I've lost weight so she's been working out. I'm so proud of her! She's such a beautiful woman and the best wife of an ex-husband that an ex-wife can have! lol

and....my chiropractor said that since I've been running, my left leg is now shorter than my right which explains why I've been really hitting hard on my left leg when I run. I goofed up my hip a bit too so....I have to go once a week now....which I don't mind because I get an awesome massage by Kevin (who just happened to be my "first kiss" when I was in 3rd grade) (yes, it was a bit awkward at first, but we are over that)(and yes, my husband knows and is secure in the fact that I'm not going to run off with my 3rd grade boyfriend) although he does give a great massage!

ok....Drew is home on the moped.....for those that still don't believe me...DREW IS MY SON! So..I'm going to say hello to him (because I never see him..he's usually at work, school or at his girlfriend Sarah's house ) and then its off to dream land.

almost at the end..but its really a beginning

Time is not on my side....been working hard at working out.....working hard at work and then also my part time college job too. I'm starting to feel the effects of burning the candle at both ends....and in the middle.

I ran a total of 9 miles yesterday....I did 4.33 this morning....I'm off to the gym to put in some more miles. Then its OTTO and I at the gym tonight.

I miss seeing everyone!

Exciting news….at least for me it was…….

So, I ran the 3.2 the other day….which is 5K so I did meet me goal of running 5K, but I actually want to go out and run a 5K.

Yesterday, I made a goal of running for 45 minutes. It was nice outside so I decided to run…..I went 3.75 miles, which only .25 of that was my warm up and cool down. I was totally amazed that I ran this far. When I went to the gym to work out with OTTO, he wanted me to do more cardio and I ran another 2 miles!

OTTO and I talked about my body last night. He wanted to make sure that I could see the CHANGES that my body has been going through. I must admit that when I look in the mirror, I do see them. When I put on my pants now (the size 12) my first thoughts are “these won’t fit me”. It is hard for my brain to grasp my new body. I still see myself and being a lot heavier. This will take some adjusting.

Someone at work today asked me if I was taking meds and the B12 to lose weight. I knew that this was going to probably come up at some point. The answer is NO, I’m not. I’m doing this the old fashion way. A lot of people here at my work have tried this medication is the past. I’ve seen them get pretty thin and then go right back up when the meds stop. I won’t be doing that!

Well, I need to go and run before I have to leave to get my braces tightened. UGH

My week on “vacation” was fun, but a lot of work too. I think I need a vacation from the vacation. Isn’t that how it usually goes? The German kids were great and by the end of the week, I felt like there were all “MY” children. This of course means that at some point during the week I wanted trade them in to Disney World for some cool Mickey Ears. Even exchange I think!

I was afraid that I gained weight , I was good on my diet and exercise, but not as good as I would have been if I were at home. I wound up losing 3.5 lbs. I was amazed and very glad too. I did prove to myself that I could go on vacation and not make completely horrible eating choices. I enjoyed the exercise and found I missed OTTO a ton! When I would want to skip my run, I’d remember him telling me how I had to push myself. I am the one in control and I am the one that has to make this decision. So…..run I did. I bought some weights too and did some shoulder/arm/bicep work and water aerobics too.

So I am back at work, in my new job. Change is good. I must embrace it and go with the flow. No sense resisting because it will not change the outcome only make myself miserable!

My workouts with OTTO started back yesterday. It was a hard work out, but a good one. I have to work late tonight so OTTO met me at the gym at 0530 to do weights. I was soooooooo not into it and felt very sluggish but he kept me focused and moving.

Postives for me this week:
Ran 3.23. miles yesterday in 32:38 (first time ever running 5K)
Ran 1 mile this morning in 9:32 (my fastest time)

Thanks to everyone for following my blog! The support is GREAT!
I miss seeing Missy, Zac, Todd and Kristen....I hope I get to see you all soon!!!